lea

Who cares - what the cynics say
I care - if only youre on your way
Lea - dont let the same be true
Lea - do you still want me to want you
--Lea, Toto

lea is my friend from college. she was my classmate since first year but we never really became close until we fell for the same guy. the moment i fell for M, she already moved on and was in a relationship. i asked for her blessing (although it was not necessary) to pursue the guy. falling in love with M was hard, it was good that lea was on my side because she knew him well. lea and i were inseparable. she loves coffee, a passion i never shared but appreciated. she loves attention, she shares this knock-knock jokes. she loves butterfly and she would call herself a goddess. after graduation, she left for Indonesia, i missed her terribly. we would chat the night away. remember all the fun we had.

a year ago, i learned something that really broke my heart, literally. we got together because of M, and we fell apart because of M. i stopped talking to her. it was my ego that was hurting. she stayed away, she respected my need for space. she waited until i realized that i am so stupid to let some man stand between our friendship. we went out yesterday, i realized how much i really missed her the moment i saw her. i missed hanging out with her. i remember the time that she made me a sandwich and had me drink milk. i remember our tequila nights. i remember our fishing days. i dont want to lose her again.

lea, im so sorry for being stupid. thanks for being my friend. i love you :)