optimistically single

i am single since birth. not that i hate men, but simply the moment did not happen for me. i do love men, i fell for one once when i was in college. it did not work out but it one of my happiest memories, something that will make me smile when i am already in a rocking chair. i love my single life, that is the truth. i have a lot of friends that are married, committed, and have children. i don't envy them. i am not the type who will do something i am not one hundred percent sure.
being single is a blessing and a curse. a blessing in a sense that i can go anywhere and anytime without worrying if my significant other will okay with that. i am a certified "kaladkarin". i go to a lot of places, i love the outdoors and unless the guy is willing to pitch tent with me then we will definitely hit it off.
being single is a curse especially if you a lot of friends and relatives asking when will you get married. when i am with my friends, typical things happen, i tell them i envy them, making pa-cute with the guys, and ask aloud why i am still single. there are really moments that you get lonely and there is a void inside you that cannot filled in by your family and friends. i guess that is the part which should be filled by "someone".
i am not in a hurry, i plan to live my life to the fullest. i will enjoy what life will bring me. i will live, i will laugh, i will learn..and hopefully, fall in love along the way.