just dive

last may 17 we went to Ibabang Polo, Quezon to celebrate a dear friend's birthday. it took us four hours of van ride and about thirty minutes of walking to get to the place. the place is beautiful, there is a cave you could explore and the water is really deep. the sand is white and water is blue. as we explored the cave, some kids were on top of it and jumped into the water. i would really like to try it except that i have this irrational fear of jumping. the feeling that i am falling and the waiting to touch the surface does not thrill me. still, i wanna try. all friends jumped and suddenly i am the last one that was still standing on top, still hesitating. it was like deja vu again. that situation happened in Guimaras but i was with my college classmate. i did not jump that time. i climbed down feeling like a failure. i don't want that to happen again, second chances rarely comes along..but still my knees were shaking and my heart was beating fast. my friends encouraged me and waited for me to jump. after about an hour of patiently waiting, i did jump. the water was cool. it felt sooo good, it made me cry. i wanna share the words of wisdom that gathered from my sykes outdoor friends:

ms tin: lahat tayo may fear, dapat lang i-confront para mawala.

kuya milmar: parang love lang yan, jump ka lang pero wag mo itutuloy kahit na may 1% hesitation lang.

sir rhone: are you a quitter? because you are a loser now.

kuya pat: don't think, just jump.

rhovee: if you can't do it now, you wont do it ever.

they were kind, they were mean but i love them all. they were there when i jumped. ms tin said not to close my eyes when i jump so i can see everything. i can clearly now.