when you feel like giving up...

‎"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place"

conquering fears

"Decide that you want it more that you are afraid of it." ~Bill Cosby

Goodbye and Hello

"You work, you study, you prepare. Months and years leading to one day, the day when you step up" ~Grey's Anatomy

2011 Highlights

-attended Ati-atihan and went to Boracay the first time. It was fun, I went there with my friends.

-had my graduate degree last June (yey!)

-got to present my paper in a national conference (yey again!)

Goodbye!

2011 was a good year for me, I was blessed with a lot of opportunities and got to travel a lot with some good friends. I am thankful that I have friends who genuinely cares about me. I am thankful of my family who still staying strong in spite of everything. I am thankful for the times I laughed and had fun. I am thankful for the times I felt really sad and needed to cry. I am thankful I am single and independent and can decide for myself like adults do.

Hello!

This 2012, I do hope that life would still treat me kind. I hope I travel to a lot of places again. I am happy that I'll start the year with a travel to CDO, as I have hoped for last year. Truly, if you want something, and you'll wish hard enough for it, you'll get someday. This year will be better, I hope I'll be able to look for a job that I will well compensated and that I'll enjoy doing it and also get to travel. Or I hope I'll finally get the chance to study abroad. I'll believe in myself. I can do this :)

heartaches

I had a nice weekend getaway with C. This is actually the second time he brought me to his hometown. I was happy to be with him and I admit that I am a little infatuated with him. He's nice, he's smells good and he's very attentive. Maybe, I thought, just maybe, he is not gay after all. He had a girlfriend before and maybe he is not "confused" anymore. I asked him about it and he said that those things shouldn't be asked in the first place if it was obvious. I wanted to cry right there and there. I kept on thinking how pathetic the situation is. I'm still hurt. Why is it hard for me? Other people fall in love and loved in return without any complication. I guess it is just not for me.

Nap and get over it

There are times when you really hit rock bottom and you need friends to help you get over the loneliness you are feeling. However, one of the hardest truth you need to know is that the world will not stop just because you are crying. People move on and adults need to work. If you feel tired then rest. If you feel sad then cry. If you feel lonely then make yourself feel better. Sometimes it is better to lick your wounds with friend cheering on your back but sometimes you need to do it alone. Don't rely on other people for happiness, take charge of your life and pick yourself up.

The Ruins

The Taj Majal of the Philippines. Wealthy sugar baron Don Mariano Ledesma Lacson built the mansion in 1900′s for Maria Braga, his Portuguese wife. Love is eternal.

a friend in need is a friend indeed

I been feeling low these past few days. I'm sad because right now I'm officially all alone. My last roommate left for another job in another province. I feels like everybody is moving on while I'm still stuck here unsure of what to do next. The things I want before are not things that's in my priority list. It's funny because I used to decide what is best for me but now I have to consider a lot of things like my family. I'm torn between going back home and find a job locally or apply in universities abroad. I love my family more than anything and I'm sad that I'm not present during the important milestones in their life. I miss my mother and my sisters. But I can't let go of my dream of studying abroad. I would like to believe that I could do it given the opportunity. So I'm in this confused state and I don't have friends here with to tell it to. A beer would be good, especially if shared with a friend.