a friend in need is a friend indeed

I been feeling low these past few days. I'm sad because right now I'm officially all alone. My last roommate left for another job in another province. I feels like everybody is moving on while I'm still stuck here unsure of what to do next. The things I want before are not things that's in my priority list. It's funny because I used to decide what is best for me but now I have to consider a lot of things like my family. I'm torn between going back home and find a job locally or apply in universities abroad. I love my family more than anything and I'm sad that I'm not present during the important milestones in their life. I miss my mother and my sisters. But I can't let go of my dream of studying abroad. I would like to believe that I could do it given the opportunity. So I'm in this confused state and I don't have friends here with to tell it to. A beer would be good, especially if shared with a friend.