heartaches

I had a nice weekend getaway with C. This is actually the second time he brought me to his hometown. I was happy to be with him and I admit that I am a little infatuated with him. He's nice, he's smells good and he's very attentive. Maybe, I thought, just maybe, he is not gay after all. He had a girlfriend before and maybe he is not "confused" anymore. I asked him about it and he said that those things shouldn't be asked in the first place if it was obvious. I wanted to cry right there and there. I kept on thinking how pathetic the situation is. I'm still hurt. Why is it hard for me? Other people fall in love and loved in return without any complication. I guess it is just not for me.

Nap and get over it

There are times when you really hit rock bottom and you need friends to help you get over the loneliness you are feeling. However, one of the hardest truth you need to know is that the world will not stop just because you are crying. People move on and adults need to work. If you feel tired then rest. If you feel sad then cry. If you feel lonely then make yourself feel better. Sometimes it is better to lick your wounds with friend cheering on your back but sometimes you need to do it alone. Don't rely on other people for happiness, take charge of your life and pick yourself up.

The Ruins

The Taj Majal of the Philippines. Wealthy sugar baron Don Mariano Ledesma Lacson built the mansion in 1900′s for Maria Braga, his Portuguese wife. Love is eternal.

a friend in need is a friend indeed

I been feeling low these past few days. I'm sad because right now I'm officially all alone. My last roommate left for another job in another province. I feels like everybody is moving on while I'm still stuck here unsure of what to do next. The things I want before are not things that's in my priority list. It's funny because I used to decide what is best for me but now I have to consider a lot of things like my family. I'm torn between going back home and find a job locally or apply in universities abroad. I love my family more than anything and I'm sad that I'm not present during the important milestones in their life. I miss my mother and my sisters. But I can't let go of my dream of studying abroad. I would like to believe that I could do it given the opportunity. So I'm in this confused state and I don't have friends here with to tell it to. A beer would be good, especially if shared with a friend.