“If you think back and replay your year, if it doesn't bring you tears either of joy or sadness, consider it wasted.” -- ally mcbeal

i'm so looking forward to 2008. i have a new job, new roommates, new officemates. i am just so grateful for each day that was given to me, to see the sun, breath the air, hang-out with my friends, and eat siomai.

but, of course, i have to talk about the highlights of my 2007.

there are a lot of things that happened to me last year. christmas and new year of 2007 i went home to palawan after 4 years of studying and 6 months of working in iloilo. i have to let go of the "me" in iloilo and face the "me" in palawan. so many things changed. friends got pregnant, got married, separated. some aquintances and close friends got sick and died. new places to visit.. it was as if i'm chasing my old life back but of course that is not the case because that old life is not mine anymore. it was me but not me at all.

job hunting was my main priority. after months of endless search i finally got accepted to work as a research assistant in a remote island. it was a job that i badly needed. i wanted to get away from our home, i was away too long that i don't know how to connect with my family and old friends anymore. i think it was God's will. the island has no electricity, cell signal, and even tricycle. i go to sleep at 7pm and wake up at 6am. at the end of the day i have nothing left to do but sit under the cashew tree and drink coffee. in a situation like that you can't help but think of how you lived your life. the job has to end though, but i will carry memories of the people who touched my soul and me appreciate life better.

i moved to manila after that. worked for another company but have to resign after two months. i don't like people who are exploiting other people. i learned that it is really true that rich people exploit poor people just like in movies and what you see in the news. my innocence was shattered and i have to resign before i drowned in that filthy water. no wonder the rich gets richer and the poor gets poorer.

anyway, the new change of environment will do me good. i know that i will be challenged everyday but i need that rush to make me feel alive again. i know that so many things will happen, i will welcome everything.. bad or good, i will just move on, will be firm, will be positive :)