Bothered

I'm actually bothered these past few days.

1. There is a boy. Yes, finally a boy in my life. "Boy" perfectly describes him since he is 5 years my junior. It started with exchanging of numbers. Few text messages and ended kissing in the comfort room. How the hell it happened. I don't know. I was too drunk to remember how and why and cannot even decide if I enjoyed the kiss of not. Lesson: Stop drinking if you cannot stand anymore. Drink with a trusted friend. Men cannot be trusted in general. I did enjoy spending time with "boy" but i need to let him go eventually. He is obviously looking for a good time and I'm not a good time girl especially when I'm sober.

2. L. Are you mad at me?? I hope not, it may look like i don't care but i do. I treasure our friendship. I hope we can iron this out. I'd be sad if our friendship ends.

3. My proposal. I'll be presenting at the end of the month. I'm too lazy to start it. I'm really sad here. I want to go home, be with my family and friends but I need to stay here to get my graduate degree.

4. The future. What do I really want? I don't know what I want. F*ck.