you: i'm sorry but I think i'm going to hurt
you.
me: what is it?
you: i'm sorry, it just happened.
me: what?
you: i--
me: (it finally hit me) kayo na ba?
you: hindi pa, pero parang ganun na rin yun..
me: (cries)
you: (tried to hold me)
me: (shove you away)
you: (look at me helplessly)
XXX
she was my dear friend, almost like a sister. you loved
her for three years now. me, just a stupid girl who
fell for you in the same instant you were falling for
her. i was so stupid that i even confessed it to you
last christmas. you were pretty sport about it and my
confession didn't change anything about us..at least
for a while. and i thought that maybe, just maybe, we
could be have something that is beyond friendship. how
did i ever let myself believe you'd eventually fall
for me when i know for a fact that even if there are
billions of people on this planet you only have eyes for one
and you wouldn't want anybody else.
the night we had that conversation made me realize
that i'm in a hopeless situation,we are in a hopeless
situation. i ended up crying the whole night. we
promised to remain friends even after everything. who
are we kidding, in fact, who am i kidding? i know i can
never look at you again without a pang of sadness. i
know i am a person of my own worth but it wouldn't
change the fact that you didn't love me back.
i cried like hell for it but it wasn't enough to reach
you. i drown myself in cigarettes and bottles of beer
but it wasn't enough to kill me. i'm alive but inside
there is a certain void that nothing could fill in.
how did life go on? i don't have any idea. four months
has gone by and i'm still stranded.
XXX
you: how was your vacation?
me: okay,we traveled a lot.
you: you tanned nicely.
me: courtesy of palawan, we did a sampling there.
you: look, if--
me: i have to go, i'll be late for my class.
you: uh, okay. see you around.
me: yeah.
you: (turned around and left)
me: (remained standing and watched as you walk away)
