i broke up with my bestfriend G yesterday. it was sad but i think we need some time to be away with each other. we were college classmates, inseparable, and i can say that nobody really knows me like he does. after college, we went separate ways, i missed him the most so when i came to manila, he was one of the reason. i wanted to be with him. i don't get attached to people easily but when i do it is hard for me to let go. i don't want to let him go, he was my connection to the happiest years of my life, he was the one who has seen me wasted, he was the one who carried me when i was too drunk to come home, and he was the one i'm with when i am 10 pesos away from poverty line.
but i need to let him go because i dont deserve him. i am selfish. i now realized that he was always there for me but i wasn't there when he needs me. and even though i understand his desisions, the selfish part of me wants to argue. people change, needs change. i cant accept that i have to share him with others, that i can't give the understanding he needs, and sometimes he just cant be with me.
i gonna let him go, for now. i will still love him, i will still be his friend, that is why i'm gonna let him go.
