episode II

the night she realized her feelings towards matt was night she crumbled. all her sensibilities flew out of the window, out of her soul. she went to bed with a headache. trying to deny it. hoping tomorrow everything will change. she entered her room smelling like beer. her roommate was awoken by her movements and asked her if she was okay. she replied yes. never been this great, she added silently.

she cannot sleep. damn those beers. damn those ciggies. damn me. she turned at the side of her bed and talked to her roommate. if she cannot sleep, nobody will. she asked her roommate about love. right now the girl was contently happy dating someone.

"why the sudden questions?"

"nothing."

"are you with matt?"

"yep."

"then you should tell him how you feel. let’s sleep, we have a quiz tomorrow."

"fuck!"

was i that obvious?? , she thought.

episode I

she was just an ordinary girl. she was nineteen. studying in a good university. have friends . she had a crush or two but nothing serious. she views relationship as a deep pit wherein you are not sure if you’ll get out alive and still in one piece. no, she was not cynical about love. she is just simply a realist. but her world began to crumble when she realized one day that for the first time she was hopelessly and totally in love.

matthew. he was a friend. a good friend in fact. they shared a lot together. from cases of beer to her very first cigarette. music to movies. and secretly they share the passion for the movie "my sassy girl" . they click together. somewhat a soulmate if you’ll put it in a cheesy way.

she cried when she realized the extent of her emotions towards him. she didn’t expect it. she doesnt need this kind of distraction. she was always a practical person. able to control her emotions. but that night she suddenly turned into a maudlin after two bottles of red horse.